Very honestly, the title of this entry should be "I deleted Warcraft." Or rather, I uninstalled it. Removing it from my life. (Forever?)I don't think there's a way of getting it back in, cos when i bought the computer, it was installed FOR me. No CD whatsoever. So it's a pretty big step... doing this. It's for the better. What kinda person would call me "one of the most disciplined persons he's ever met??!" Idiot. Fool. You guys probably don't know me.

Well, why did i do it, u ask? It's because I'm sick of lying on my bed having images of Leshrac pounding his enemies with big balls of fire. Or Rikimaru pawning others with 2 cranium bashers and his death ward. AND someone screaming "GODLIKE!" when he kills 10 heros in a row. AND wishing that it was ME having that "GODLIKE!". Hey, on a side note, I did have two of those 'godlikes' before. Hahah. Quite proud of it. But it's once in a blue moon. I'm tired of closing my eyes, and all I see are the multiple ways in which I could have prevented my hero from being killed.

"Maybe Zeus coulda chain lighting-ed twice, ran a little, and killed with a level2 Wrath of God...."

"Stupid clinkz, i hate him, he has hitpoints like a dung beetle."

Believe me. Men are VERY visual creatures. Staring at a 3D universe game which actually does the visual imaging for your mind can do very weird things. I mean, OF COURSE i tried NOT thinking about warcraft! I TRIED! I want to think about family, friends. And pray for them... allthat good stuff... I want to think about my Lord. I want to imagine how good it is in heaven. Imagine what good works i can do for the Lord during my short-stay on earth! But i cannot tell you how many times i've strayed from those thoughts into WC thoughts. And then i catch myself doing it! I realign myself. But all of a sudden i see that stupid Treant/Tidehunter/Luna again! very..... tough, i should say, to burn images out of my mind, when they're already burned in!

And then, there's ..............

Currently feeling: relieved, amazed. Amazed that i actually did it. Yeah, been thinking about it for a very long time. Actually tried deleting the desktop shortcut to Warcraft. You guessed right. It did NOT work. Didn't even last 2 days. But now it's gone, right down to the bits and bytes of the "evil" program. Hehehhe..Evil? It's "evil" if i make it to be.

Yet another option for this entry's title could be "There's still hope". Deliver me from darkness. Yes. That should be it. I like that one.

hey jan, you wanted to critique my work, right?? Here's a poster i TRIED to design for resurrection week. hehe...

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Romans 1:20 

²⁰For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature–have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

^{1 _{Sing to the LORD a new song;}}

    _{^{sing to the LORD , all the earth.}}

    _{^{2 Sing to the LORD , praise his name;}}

    _{^{proclaim his salvation day after day.}}

    _{^{3 Declare his glory among the nations,}}

    _{^{his marvelous deeds among all peoples}}.

All creatures of our God and King... lift up your voice and sing!

^{For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;}

    ^{he is to be feared above all gods.}

    ^{5 For all the gods of the nations are idols,}

    ^{but the LORD made the heavens.}

    ^{6 Splendor and majesty are before him;}

    ^{strength and glory are in his sanctuary.}

O praise Him... Hallelujah! Praise, praise the Father, praise the Son, and Praise the Spirit, three in one!

7 ^{Ascribe to the LORD , O families of nations,}

    ^{ascribe to the LORD glory and strength.}

    ^{8 Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;}

    ^{bring an offering and come into his courts.}

    ^{9 Worship the LORD in the splendor of his  holiness;}

    ^{tremble before him, all the earth.}

Alleluia. Alleluia. Alleluia. There is no one like our God, the everlasting I AM

Hail Gladdening Light, such joyous light , o brilliant star, forever shine...

^{10 Say among the nations, "The LORD reigns."}

    ^{The world is firmly established, it cannot be moved;}

    ^{he will judge the peoples with equity.}

    ^{11 Let the heavens rejoice, let the earth be glad;}

    ^{let the sea resound, and all that is in it;}

    ^{12 let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them.}

    ^{Then all the trees of the forest will sing for joy;}

    ^{13 they will sing before the LORD , for he comes,}

    ^{he comes to judge the earth.}

    ^{He will judge the world in righteousness}

    ^{and the peoples in his truth.}

All glory to you Lord. You deserve it all, don't you? all the praise, all the power, all the glory. the best thing for me is you. forgive us when we stray. father, help me see your plans. bigger, better and more awesome plans. of course my road takes a bumpy turn once in a while. i know that. but dont ever let me forget the joy u give. your love like an ocean. you're the sun, i'm the moon. you're the vine, i'm the branches. without you i know no light, without you i know no fruit, without you , we all know NOT of true life.